Cold Feet (UPDATE)
Posted: Thu Oct 13, 2005 10:33 pm
So I'm talking with this nice young lady that I have been madly in love with for about 4 years now we kinda tryed to have a relationship a few years back and do to the fact that she lives out of state it fell apart. Well she's back in my life has been for about a month.
Everytime I talk to her I wonder "What in the hell is she doing with me?" She's totaly out of my league she's a 10 easy and I'm a -3 I mean she's the type of girl a guy like me could only dream of. She's the only girl who has ever made me weak in the kness I mean like whoa
But now that I have her back I don't wanna let her slip away.
But at the same time I have cold feet if I fuck this up I'll never forgive myself. She's the holy grail to my Monty Python ya dig? Sometimes I feel like I try to hard but one of her friends who happends to be a friend of mine aswell says that she's crazy about me. Maybe I just don't think that highly of myself but I just can't belive that I could land a girl like this. I just don't want my own self doubt to ruin this before anything ever begins.
We have somuch in common its not even funny (Its scary) unlike how I might act on here I'm a nice guy so I think I might be working the sweet guy angle and the fact that I can make her laugh dosent hurt but I still can't figure out why she wants anything to do with me. I have lost great girls to total asshole's in the past maybe karma owes me one or maybe I'm just in for more pain.
Everytime I talk to her I wonder "What in the hell is she doing with me?" She's totaly out of my league she's a 10 easy and I'm a -3 I mean she's the type of girl a guy like me could only dream of. She's the only girl who has ever made me weak in the kness I mean like whoa

But at the same time I have cold feet if I fuck this up I'll never forgive myself. She's the holy grail to my Monty Python ya dig? Sometimes I feel like I try to hard but one of her friends who happends to be a friend of mine aswell says that she's crazy about me. Maybe I just don't think that highly of myself but I just can't belive that I could land a girl like this. I just don't want my own self doubt to ruin this before anything ever begins.
We have somuch in common its not even funny (Its scary) unlike how I might act on here I'm a nice guy so I think I might be working the sweet guy angle and the fact that I can make her laugh dosent hurt but I still can't figure out why she wants anything to do with me. I have lost great girls to total asshole's in the past maybe karma owes me one or maybe I'm just in for more pain.