I appreciate the posts on being positive and strong. I appreciate those of you who are injecting humor and trying to ease away the pain.
But I am still crying. I am crying so hard, I am choking on tears sometimes. I know TMIC would say "Girrllll, what U cryin' 'bout? I ain't dead yest, muthafucka!".
But I am still crying. I am crying for the world as it will be a sad place without Richard physically here anymore.
I am crying for Jennifer because I wish to ease some of the pain and remove any burdens from her.
I cry for Richard children for they won't see their Daddy in the physical form anymore.
I cry for all those who have MS and hope to God that they find a cure.
I cry because...well Richard was like a brother, and uncle to all of us. I feel hollow inside, like the day they told the world that Tupac was gone, or when Elvis layed down.
All the crying in the world is not gouing to bring The Man In Charge back. I know this.
But I am still crying.
One this that make me feel a little better is that I know that Richard is in Paradise. Muslims refer to Heaven as Paradise. I know he has been reunited with his beloved Grand Mother. Oh what a joy it was for him to gaze upon her beautiful face once more.
I also kmow that his body has a heavenly form now, one where MS does not abide. He his tall, dark and so handsome in his heavenly robes.
So my tears are of sorrow, for the world's loss, for Jennifer's loss. They are also tears of joys, for our Dear Richard has gone on to his heavenly reward and that, is nothing to be sad about.
My heart is so full and heavy right now.
All I can say is that I am so very gald I had an opportunity to join this site in time to be a part of his site and life, if only for a litlle while.
I love you Richard. I will never forget you and will always honor you for the strong and awesome BLACK man that you are.
One Love & Still crying,
Big T
