Murphdogg,
May God keep you, man. We haven't chatted much here but I definitely want to give my condolenses for your loss. This touches a nerve with me and I can kinda relate a little bit on how you feel. In April 2001, a week after my daughter's 4th birthday, her mother showed up at my mother's house to visit after not being in her life for two years. When my mother turned her back, she snuck off with her, never to return. I was at my apartment catching a nap and my mother called and told me what had happened. I went ballistic!
And since i never went and filed for custody, there wasn't much I could even do about it. It broke my heart to no end. Here I was, trying to be a good father and raise my little girl and poof, it was all over. I was helpless and broken. The situation almost killed me because me and my kid had such a close relationship. She was my heart and I had never loved anyone so much and so selflessly. But the thing that always brought me back from the brink was the thought that she was still around and for the most part healthy and one day, I WOULD see her again. I always knew and said to myself, there is always someone who's doing worse.
So, I give you the utmost of the utmost respect for getting through your ordeal and still being able to stand up and go on. To be able to post pictures of him and celebrate his life and what he gave and did for you. Children truly are a blessing and they DO change you, always for the better. Even if sometimes it doesn't feel like it. I always keep that in mind when I get down about my daughter. She lives in another state now and I have only seen her once since she left. And her mother is continuing to make things very difficult for me. I keep in mind to cherish the time I did have with her and all the times of fun and laughter we shared. So, that's what you do, Murph, keep sharing the special blessing God gave to you for what seemed like a short time, but as long you keep those memories alive inside you, it's forever.
Thanks for sharing those pics with us, you truly threw some light my way.
I'm a huge Star Wars fan as you would know by the SW thread going on in the Movies section, so I'll give you this line from a certain green kickass Jedi Master:
"Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the force. Mourn them do not. Miss them do not. Attachment leads to jealousy, the shadow of greed that is."
I don't know if that says anything, but it's all I could come up with right now.
Stay smooth playa, and as always...play on.
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, homey!
