JTF,
wow. ok now that I have the skinny. all I can say to smj, what really helped me was to make a list of the must have qualities and then continue on with desired/wish-list qualities.
then go through that list and see which of those qualities matched the person you thought you were so in love with. and you will be shocked. that person may match maybe 1 of 2 of the bottom part of the list, or none at all.
relationships take time, they're not roulette tables. friendship and trust is the basis for all. and more important being a good friend to yourself first, as you can't be a friend to someone else, let alone a committed partner to someone.
and of course the timeless I Corinthians Chapt 13, which is funny, because I've read this at a few weddings for folks and I'm like "are yall motherfukkas LISTENING?!" sure nuff, a few years later, they were at each others throats.

and my dress was NOT refundable!!!
anyway, so take your time, but act decisively because either you'll just end up being used or just using someone. life's short, why make it ridiculous in the process.