The tests

[Daria]

Hi Jen,
Sorry I have been off line for a little while but I have been talking about you and Richard almost every day to anyone who will listen. Have your ears been burning? You are my heros. Anyway just a catch up. I did 3 performances last week and have 3 scheduled for this week. Last Friday our second week for my own show was great until the MC fucked me up and gave the audience a break when my husband told him not to give them a break but he took it upon himself to do so. So then I had to get on stage and bring the energy back up so the people weren't laughing as much as they would normally for the first half of my show because they had to get into the swing of things again. I was ok with it but my husband was furious he would have told the MC off but his friend with him was from the industry and we found out after the show that he liked me anyhow and would be looking to book me. The funny thing is that I think he expected me to be all like "Wow gee whiz thanks what would I have done without you? Can I kiss your feet now." and I was like "ok thanks for coming" it completly took him by surprise because I know that their idea of booking people is to send them all over town and not pay them until they feel they are good enough well I already have 2 paid gigs a week that my husband got for me and if he can get me 2 he can get me more. So I will keep you posted on that since the ball is in their court now we aren't going to chase them.
I am posting more about something else. This morning my husband started my day (unfortunatly) with telling me that another popular room in Sydney that I have MC'd successfully at is going to have an all female comedy show in May. Now I don't mean to be mean but there are about 15 female comics in Sydney right now that aren't headliners and about 5 that are well known headliners but out of those 15 only about 3 are really really funny. From the response I got at their room when I MC'd I am one of those 3 (I hate sounding cocky but I know I can kill, plus the likeability factor and all that crap). Now this is where I need your help. The only thing I can do to keep from worrying about whether they will pick me to do the show or not, whether it be to MC or feature or be one of the open mikers (unpaid ugh) is to WOODSHED. I think this is a mental test. Do I focus on what happens if they don't pick me or should I just try and not think about it and pretend I didn't even know. I swear I wish my husband never told me I like being ignorant to such things. But the only thing that keeps pulling at me is to just blow off everything I had planned to do today and practice practice practice then if I don't get the call I know I am still a good comic working on being great. What do you and all the fourm folk think? I am open.
Love ya all
Daria

[Jennifer]

Daria,
Well, when there are things facing me beyond my control, i have to surrender to the gods! I mean, we can drive oursevles nuts, and we all have done that, or we can say, fuck it-what will be will be-and keep stepping-
do the footwork and leave the rest to the gods!!! Don't worry-don't focus on it, let it go-and when you surrender-magical things happen!
love jen