4:04 am (I miss Shawn)

[smjmcomic]

I don't sleep anymore I can't stop thinking of the ones I'v lost thinking about where I have been and where I might go. Thinking about how nice it would be to lay my head down care free. I miss that feeling when I could go to sleep without a care in the world I miss myself. I miss the things I have had and never will. I do have hope.

Its really all I have I hope that I'll feel whole someday hope that I wont be lost hope that I'll be filled with positivity insted of self pitty and doubt. Hope that I wont let bitterness win the battle that looms inside me hope that I'll become a better person hope that someday I will let love flow through me again. Hope that I'll open up to myself and the world around me. Hope that for once I will not feel like a scared little boy trying to take big steps in little baby shoes hope that when I do sleep I can wake up with a smile and some direction. I hope Shawn will come back someday I miss him.

[Visitor]

smjmcomic,

I get this way too. But I have also battled depression since my early teen years..
My best words to you would be Hold on the the Hope because the present will pass and if you can talk to someone..You are still you, just need a little refreshing.

[JTF]

smjmcomic,

Some words of advice...

Don't wipe nobody's ass but your own.

What does this mean? Only worry about your own shit. Let other people take care of their own ass. The more you get involved in other people's shit, the messier it gets.

So keep your own ass clean, then let others worry about their ass themselves.

[tis2flyyy]

JTF,

Good Advice, John.

I learned that the hard way. trying to help people out, then get stuck having to PAY for their bullshit. No more of that shit. The RED CARPET is rolled up. Broke azz mofo's

[Murphdogg]

smjmcomic, my advice is when you start feeling like this, watch a Larry the Cable guy stand up special, with as much as you hate that guy you'll be too busy cussing to think of the abyss.